This is why Kat didn't come to the movie last night. Makes me feel a bit better.


Justin!!

I'm so sorry I had miss the film last night, I hope you managed to go with your mates. I tried to call you but the person who answered the front desk phone was out on the lawns or something and said he had just seen you leave with your friends so told me not to bother trying your room, the number for which I couldn't find anyway as Ramana and I could only find the old contact sheet so the front desk was my only hope. Righto. Well. We went and did a poster run and then I had to sort out the musicians dramas.. that's my excuse. I might be going to see Troy with some of the cast members tomorrow night though this looks doubtful atm because Tim and I have to get together to go over what needs to happen on Monday when I won't be there and some other stuff.
Well, now you know all about my crazy weekend.
See you soon,
love, Kat xxx

13 was an amazing movie, on par with Requiem for a Dream in both disturbing nature of the content, and the way it never once let you put your guard down. Sort of how I feel right now.

Kat was a no show. I dropped her an e-mail last night with the time of the movie, and we talked about it on Wednesday.

Fuckin' whatever. No one's here at Emmanuel. I'm going to go look for something worthwhile to do. Fuck all knows what that is.

"this year will be better than the last." - thursday

I think I pulled a bait and switch on Kat and didn’t even mean to, and in fact, didn’t even think about it until I got home to Emmanuel. We were in her car together, after rehersal, and I did this:

Me: Hey, I wanted to talk to you about something.
Kat: Yes?
Me: I was thinking about the play, particularly the portrayals of the villians in the play, I feel that it’s sort of too comed-
Kat: I totally agree. We’re fixing that. (said with head against steering wheel, looking at me in the passenger seat)

Why am I a total idiot? If she feels the same way, this was like that moment in Bruce Almighty when Jennifer Aniston thinks that Jim Carrey is going to propose, but he actually says that he’s going to go for anchorman… Wow, I’m a douchebag. Kill me.

Today has been a really good day. Kat and I had a monologue development session which pretty much turned into me and her hanging out, and me talking about New York and New Jersey, which makes me nostalgic for home, but wanting nothing more than to be here with her. We're going to see the movie "Thirteen" together on Friday night. :)

Also, during European Modernist Drama class, Nadia gave me a note asking me if I had some time after class. I told her yes. So we went out to the front of the Forgan-Smith building. She told me that she had a crush on me, saying, "It was supposed to be a secret, which means everyone knows." Yeah, that's the truth, darling. She said she would feel a lot better if it was out in the open, and she knew that I had a crush on someone else, and wanted me to know about the way she felt.

Of course I was okay with it. I've been on her side of things far too many times to not be okay and understand. We hugged twice, and after the second time, she said, "But I'm pretty right?" And I said, "Yes! Definitely! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise!" :)

Then she went to her tutorial.

As I walked back into the Forgan-Smith building, above the door, etched in stone, it said, "Great is truth, and mighty above all things." How right they are...

So that's really cool now. I'm really happy about the way that worked out. :)

So today has been a really good day. Any suggestions on things to do after the movie?

Kat gave me a ride home today. She told me she really liked the "tick... tick... BOOM!" soundtrack I made for her, and I told her all about the show and whta I remember of it. Then I gave her a hug goodbye, and she kissed me on the cheek! :)

Good signs? What do y'all think?